Me

I am not a sorority girl.

I am not a cheerleader.

I do not jump up and down and scream in delight.

I do not high five.

I am a hugger but a cautious one.

I have a hard time connecting with others.

I do give my whole heart to people I call friend.

I do trust easily even when I know I shouldn’t.

I am hard on myself.

I do relive conversations, incidents, etc. 1000’s of times over in my head and continue to feel the same raw emotion I felt the first time all over again.

I do not forgive quickly or easily, including myself.

I do forgive, but not forget.

I only trust once.

I try not to judge, but I know I fail at this effort.

I try to value each person for who they are and what they bring to the table regardless of their scars and flaws.

I am genuinely surprised when that value is not returned.

I do wish we could all just let people live their own lives regardless of how they choose to live their lives.

I do not think it’s anyone’s place to judge another person.

I do not think it’s anyone’s right to tell someone else how to live their life.

I do believe in a learning mindset.

I do want to hear both sides of the story.

I do not believe in sugar coating anything though I have.

I have lied when I knew someone didn’t want to hear the truth, but only validation for their own thoughts / emotions.

I have never felt good about those lies.

I do wish I had been brave enough to tell the truth, even when it was ugly and would cause pain.

I do believe in respecting someone’s pain.

I do believe we each carry our own truth.

I do believe in treating adults as adults.

I do believe in treating children as precious creatures and working to meet them where they are emotionally.

I will not respect anyone who does not show me equal respect.

I will not respect someone who is cruel to a child.

I will not respect someone who is cruel to an animal.

I do not tolerate stupidity well.

I will not remain in a toxic relationship.

I will not remain in a one sided relationship.

I will not argue with someone who refuses to see any other viewpoint.

I am not narcissistic.

I am not self destructive.

I am not a victim.

I do not respect the victim mentality.

I do believe in therapy / counseling.

I do believe in respecting mental health.

I do believe in grace; grace for others; grace for ourselves.

I do believe we are all human and therefore all flawed.

I have never asked anyone to hate anyone else.

I have never told anyone to think, act, feel, say, or do anything just as I do in order for me to accept or like them.

I am guilty of seeking validation from others.

I have let others take from me and didn’t stand up for myself because I didn’t want to hurt their feelings.

I did feel pain.

I have spent most of my life with a negative dialog about myself inside my own head.

I have spent most of my life believing myself to be stupid, unworthy, inadequate.

I have spent most of my life learning to love myself for who I am.

I have spent most of my life searching for balance and peace.

I am not perfect.

I have never claimed to be perfect.

I like myself.

I am intelligent.

I am not inadequate.

I seek knowledge.

I am worthy.

I am a kind person.

I am a good friend.

I admire my tenacity and perseverance.

I love God.

I love my family.

I love my husband.

I love my son.

I love my friends.

I breathe.

I think.

I hurt.

I feel.

I am human.

I am flawed.

I am imperfect.

I am not finished.

I am forgiven.

I am me.